Day: 3 December 2015 (Page 2 of 2)

Dear mom and dad I miss you I wish I can see you again. I made a lean-to, bow and arrow, spear and a fire to keep me safe I hope you are proud of me. I saw a plane and kept on feeding the fire so it can make a signal so they can find me and see you again but they did not find me and just flew away. I am in the forest and alone. I don’t think anyone is going to save me or find me. If you have this message I want you to know that I can live for a day but not for ever. I don’t want to live anymore because now no one will find me and never will. It is useless being alive. By mom and dad sorry we can’t see each other any more good by.

Dear mom and dad. It’s me your son Brian. I’m ok right now. I’m stuck in the Canadian woods. I need to get out of here! I’m doing well in surviving and getting things I really need to survive like, a lean-to shelter, food and water, fire to keep me warm, a hatchet, spear, bow and arrow to protect myself from animals. I almost got rescued but the searchers missed me because I set up a fire signal too late. After than I almost committed suicide because I felt hopeless, sad and depressed. But I couldn’t do it’ I couldn’t cut myself. Then I got in the wolf’s territory and I knew I should get out of there, but what I didn’t expected was that wolf would just look at me and stay calm all the time instead of attacking me. Then when 3 other wolves popped up I just slowly walked away. After that I realized the wolf was just another part of the woods. Now I have more hope in knowledge than hope in getting rescued. I’m not sure when I will get rescued but I will get rescued soon.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   sincerely from Brian Robenson

Today I saw the plane, but it didn’t see me. I feel gutted, I feel to empty to do anything I can’t go on. There’s no hope any more they went as far out as they thought would be necessary. The pain is too much to take. I’m done, done with the fire, done with the food, done with the world I’m just done. I can’t live my entire life out here, what if I have to stay here until winter I won’t have any food and it would be too cold. I just want it to end it, but it’s too hard too hard to end it all.

All this all this I did it’s just another part of the game another part of it all. But this game this game of life I can`t play it without hope. I also can`t play this game forever if they don`t come someday. I slept only that I did`t sleep. Thinking about it all to end, repeating the word “clouddown, clouddown“ wanting the clouds to come down. But in the morning he was still there still there looking at what I did hating it hating it all, hating what the old Brian did.

There were things that had happened to Brian two true things. He wasn’t the same, the disappointment made him new and he would never be the same. The other thing is he would not die not again he was new. The old Brian made a lot of mistakes now I need to fix them, learn from them.

Dear mom and dad.

I’m in the middle of a Canadian forest and this letter will be the last of my life and I give up.

When I saw the plane going back for good, a bunch of words came to my head like: depressed, low, suicidal, blue, bad, terrible, sick, gutted, clouddown, funk, alone and even the word dead came. Right now I’m feeling even worse than that day when I got lost in the store.

In that time I saw the plane I felt glorious, I got as happy as if I had won the lottery, until I saw it going back. In that moment I got as sad as a jailed bird.

I have been in this forest for about 47 days, 47 days surviving in the wildness. I know I got really close, you might even say no, don’t give up now, sorry but it will end I n this moment.

If the plane would came back it would take years, and after those years I might even forget about you too. I thought that it would have been too much for me, so I give up.

This will be the last note in my life, goodbye.

From: Brian